Hi, How are you stranger?

Hi, How are you stranger?

I am ok because I know that u a okay.
I worry too much because I worry about you, myself and us.
I am strong because I want to be strong n challenge myself as the way you are always doing so.
I treat n love myself more because I want to treat n love you in the same way.
I know that I have to love n take care of myself in order to be able to love n take care of you.
I want to devote myself to the world as the way to thank god for protecting me from lost and evil.
The certain is uncertain itself I know.
The truth is so cruel, crazy and correct. I wish I can have a strong mind to see the truth like you.
I know that I can do it because this is how you always do.
I shall continue to love, care n learn from the truth and you.
May all beings are rested in safe, happiness and peace.

Dashi Delek to my love!

Uncertainty is certainty

My body is my+body, and it's not me.

My husband is my+husband, and it's not me.

My friend is my+friend, and it's not me.

My house is my+house, and it's not me.

My wealth is money itself, and it's not me.

My ring is my+ring, and it's not me.

My feelings is feelings, and remember, it's not me.

My dream is my+dream, and it's not me.

My craving is my+craving, and it's not me.

My mind is my+mind, and it's not me.

My goal is my +goal, and it's not me.

My child is my+child, and it's not me.

We tend to believe that everything related to "me" is the element we can control and decide.

If you see a body as a utensil, what you fill, what it will be.

We can fill with food, water, love, abuse, thought , surgery and different things we want.

See your body like a vase, you can just clean it with water, butter, urine, honey and milk.

If a vase is dirty, flush and replace it with another new one.

If you see a body as a toilet utensil, vase, house for soul and a space, you can change your it easily just by buying and using another vase, house, space and utensil.

It is easy to see how people use meditation, yoga, cleaning, brainwash, self-deceive, distance, dreaming, mouna(silence), power, money, sex, bfs, gfs, eating, sleeping, runaway and etc...as a way to cleaning ourself and mind and maybe make you feel little bit better with dignity.

But we all need to know that my mind is my mind, and it's not me.

Our bf, house, power, money, craving, mind, dream, body, friends, and husband are not me, we can use and take care of these in proper way and with respect and love.

So don't misunderstand " your + oo" with "yourself"

It's easy for a lonely soul to find a place, space, friends, and a house to stay, but how to maintain, repair and take care of your mind and house is also important.

By using the house with respect and love, one day you won't feel sad that you are gonna loose your house in the end naturally.

Because there's no such house in the world.

So, how can we judge our love, our husband, our gfs, bfs, house, property, money, power, sex and body are what we can have forever? How can we dare to think we really have them?

There's no such a certainty thing in the world.

The certainty of the truth is everything is uncertainty.

This time, I decide to have faith on u. For u, I will stop to cry.

RunAway

I have to admit that I am a person who is weak and always run away from everything and everyone.

It's hard for me to admit how much I love something and someone.

It is always easier to just run away in order not to be hurted again.

After days, years and moments of hope, expectation, desire and breaking heart, I know one truth:

No expectation, there will be no hurting and no breaking heart.

Sadly to know, as a human being, I am a person who is full of emotion, caring and love.

And I know in the end, I will be hurted again and again after all.

But how can we stop loving something and someone if we are in love?

I always want to run away and choose the way to abandon everything.

In the end, I found out it's the easiest way to just abandon myself and terminate everything.

It is always simple to stop everything alone quietly and silently myself.

No troubles to you and to everyone.

Why I am so sad and having a breaking heart on everything?

The world and you should be the perfect one, aren't you?

Cause I love everything and everyone too much?

I don't know. Or I am just the selfish one?

I only know that endless suffering and loneliness will be with me until I die.

I know no matter how much I love you, everyone and everything, I have to face and go through my journey myself alone.

If the moment comes, and I still will have you, the one, who still care, love and put me in your mind and palms.

Then, I am the lucky one.

I hope one day you will help and free my soul. Are you the one?

I know one truth, no expectation and no sorrow; no craving and no dissatisfaction.

But why am I still so sad?

Cause I have everything now and I know that I will loose all of them very soon.

Live is just a dream.

I don't know how much I can devote myself to the world, to the people or to you?

What can I do for you with selfless purpose? Only for you ...

When can I stop running away from everything, you and myself.

I am afraid of the future, unknown and breaking heart.

I am just still the little girl who cries in the corner of the room.

If I have no heart, maybe it is easier and maybe I won't be hurted by anything anymore!

It's about time to run away~

Why I am still crying alone again?